“oh trees, wake, wake, wake. Don’t you remember it?.Don’t you remember me? Dryads and Hamadryads, come out, come to me!” –Lucy in Prince Caspian

All thru out this book I just had this picture of this sadly ruined forgotten city. A city a land and a people that had just seemed to have fallen asleep. Everything was forgotten!!!!! When Lucy speaks those words it gave me goose bumps. I too have felt that feeling. How often in our hearts or in our minds do we hide the child inside of us. How often does the childlike faith inside of us get stuffed away. This whole book seems to echo the message of: AWAKE…oh child inside!!!!

Two weeks ago it was interesting. I went into my two year old room in LifeKids and I had so much fun. I worshiped with all of my heart…and I felt more the presence of God then I had ever before in my life. During the activity, and worship, and teaching I was just put in awe of God and those kids. I held nothing back from God. But then I went the 11:30 adult Experience…and I didnt hold my hands up…and I didnt let the child inside out. I was to afraid of what others would think or see. I stuffed the child back inside!!!! Why is it that I could dance and worship and praise Him with everything inside of me in my UTS classroom but not in the Experience?

Its interesting that in that book Lucy is the first to see Aslan. No one else can see Him. Only her. When she trys to get them to see but they cant…she responds by saying quite responding like an adult. So the same can go with me. I think God wants to bring and is bringing something out of me that is beautiful. But I need to stop looking at things with “adult” eyes. I need to have childlike faith…and I need to not care what others think of me. There is such freedom in that!!!!!

This is what I think anyway…and it is what I have been thinking about. What are your thoughts?

post coming soon…I promise…

My mom watched the service online (live) this weekend (which is kind of cool thinking we technically did go to church together but didnt )  She said she will continue to watch the services live…and that she enjoyed it!!!!  She said she picked an interesting time to start though (with this series being focused on men)(but she does agree and like the series)!!!!  I am so pumped

Psalm 68:19:  “blessed be the Lord, who daily bears our burden, The God who is our salvation”

What an amazing scripture!!!!  I pray that you realize that today. That He bears our burdens DAILY for us and that you are NOT alone.  That He is walking side by side with you thru this.  Whatever that may be.  And that He is fighting for you today!!!

My mom emailed me yesterday asking me what time the  services online were for Life Church (my family lives in Houston) and if they had one on Sunday (I laughed at that because I cant wait to tell her to take her pick….we have 8 to choose from)…this is huge!!!!  Keep praying!!!!   

Ok so my title is interesting I have lies on one side and truth on the other!!!! WOW!!!!

I was really negative in my last post and selfish so I apologize!!!!  I am thankful though for all of the prayers and also encourgement!!!!  I will keep speaking these truths please pray that they eventually “take root” and that I dont give up!!!! 

Here are a few truths I got from your comments….please understand I dont nessasarily believe these but I pray that one day I will:

TRUTH: VICTORY TAKES TIME

TRUTH: ITS NOT ABOUT YOU

TRUTH: YOU MAY FEEL WEAK BUT CHRIST STRENGTH IS IN YOU SO TAKE HOPE IN THAT BECAUSE THRU THAT YOU ARE STRONG!!!!

TRUTH: TRUTH IS TRUTH NO MATTER WHO BELIEVES IT OR WHAT OTHERS THINK!!!! IT DOES NOT CHANGE (I Dont know why but I like that statement) (i am unsure if thats what you meant anna)!!!!

So what do you guys think of these truths?  What are some truths God is speaking into your life right now? ALSO what is truth in your eyes?  What does it mean to you? Is it important do you think in this BATTLE is it key?

whats the point in speaking these stupid truths!!!! they lead to nowhere and they are not important if one cannot live them up!!!!  What good are my words if they do not echo my actions?  What good are they?  What good is it to say there will be victory today….if those words end up not being true.  What good is it?  Im tired of this stupid cycle….im tired of not being believed in…im tired of it all!!!!! Im frustrated and offended!!!! Call this post selfishness I do not care!!!!! Im tired of it all!!!! Last night frustrated me….

Question: What does it mean to “lose ones life so to find it”….and what does it mean to “take up ones cross”?  What does it look like?  I realize I only have two people really that post on my blog…but I would love comments.  What has it looked like in your life?  Do you live up to those scriptures?  I dont…esp this weekend!!!!!  I was selfish…and I regret it!!!!!  Please share!!!!  Share stories if you have them!!!

ISAIAH 61:1-3

This is incredible scripture read it!!!!  My favorite part is the part that says he will give you a crown of beauty instead of ashes.  What a GLORIOUS picture of transformation.  To me it shows me the truth that God can and will do the impossible in your life.  What we think is impossible God sees as possible.   Pray that I believe this truth today!!!!